My mouth got me in trouble that day and many other days, it still does, not as much, but it still happens. In any case, I can't go back and look through a crystal ball and say that if I had done this or that then things would have turned out differently, perhaps they would have, I will never know that.
My point here is this, I was in church, learning to walk with God, trying to do things better, but sin was still infecting my life. I had not yet allowed Him full access. In my mind I was justified in shooting off my mouth on these kind of occasions.....that man left me high and dry with a baby, in the Alabama heat and sent an awful message to his two boys in the process. In my mind that day, I was very righteous in my anger. Was. I see now that my anger and the mouth it flowed from were just as responsible for my circumstances as anything was.
It really is all about perspective, you have to change your vantage point if you want the view to change. I personally don't know a better way to make that happen than to enter into a deeper relationship with God. Lord knows, I tried other things for many years, but never came to a place of peace or satisfaction like I have since I have allowed Jesus to fill my heart with His Love and Goodness.
If I had not taken the path I have; walked the hard walks, spent the nights locked out, gotten to the point of desperation to make crisis calls, would I be here today sharing my heart with you? No, I don't think so. It was those things that led me to the One who came to Save me and He has! It is only through that relationship that I feel remotely equipped to be typing these words today.
He saves. He saved me. He can save you too. He loves you. He wants your marriage to thrive. He will help you. Invite Him in to help. Upgrade His access. I don't know much, but this I do know. He came for these reasons alone...for you and for me.
If you are in a place of trial today and need to see a pin prick of light in the darkness before you....speak His name and ask for His help....He is there...waiting. Ask Him what your nest step should be. A kind word, an unexpected apology for a past hurt, reach out and make yourself vulnerable.... it is scary but it is necessary to find the healing and wholeness we seek. These are the first steps to seeing marriages healed and thriving!
2 Corinthians 12:9 GOD’S WORD Translation (GW)
But he told me: “My kindness is all you need. My power is strongest when you are weak.” So I will brag even more about my weaknesses in order that Christ’s power will live in me.