Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Birth Announcement

A new a baby waiting to be born, grows and develops slowly over time until it is ready to spring forth and become life on it's own.
What will it look like?
What will it become?
What kind of personality will it have? 
It will certainly be directed by it's author as a child is by his parents, but ultimately as with every precious gift of God it becomes it's own and takes on it's own quirks, strengths and weakness all of which are influenced by the lives that it connects with along the way. You are those lives.
This blog has been growing inside of me for some time now - well beyond a 9 month gestation to be sure.  I have at last reached a place where I feel released to deliver with a due date rapidly approaching.  While I am excited and anticipating it's arrival, like every expectant mother, there are still many questions.
Am I ready?  
Will I know what to do? 
What should I do?
What if I am not good at this? 
What if I can't communicate my heart the way I think God wants me to? 
What if do I do when I make mistakes?  
And on. 
Like pregnancy there comes a time when denial is no longer an option.  I am there.   So it is with great trepidation and butterfly belly excitement that I invite you to return and meet the new baby in my life. 
I was extremely blessed in my only real life pregnancy to deliver a healthy 10 lb 1 oz beautiful baby boy and walk away without a single stretch mark!   This will not be the case with this delivery I am certain!  In fact, I feel like this one is all about the stretch marks and scars that are already there from years of living, growing and learning that need some attention.  This is all about looking through and into those things and being transparent to where they came from and how they formed.  This is about exposure, not covering up or masking, about shining light into darkness.  This is about freedom and healing and about God's unmerited favor and grace to fade our wounds and heal us so that no evidence of  exists other than that which our hearts hold and our victories compel us to share.

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